Every. Single. Day. April 20, 2010
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I have updates. I also have a strong love for lists. Thankfully, I am able to bring these two together in what I vaguely remember calling a ‘post’. Booyah!
- It’s been been 10 days since H.A.D. came back. Ten. Days. Ten days since he decided that he wanted to come back and push “re-start” on everything and every single day since then I have woke up ridiculously grateful. Like, my mouth hurts from smiling kind of grateful. Not just for me, but for him. I believe that people need time to be alone, to sort through life when life hands you a big handful of “What the fuck?!”, but I have always believed (and always will believe) that people get better with people. It hasn’t been easy, and what’s coming next won’t be either- but I have faith that good things happen to good people and H.A.D. has earned some good karma.
- As for you dear readers? Thank you for reminding me that you were still here and for every single one of you who called or texted or emailed or bbm’ed or tweeted or sent me a telegraph (okay no one did the last one, but I was really on a roll). Cancer can be isolating, but when the person you love leaves, that kind of alone.. it’s hard to describe. And though I tried to figure it out on my own, each of you (in the close to 300 emails alone) managed to remind me that I wasn’t. Every single day I go through my inbox and re-read the words that have helped me so much. I recall the kind words said in phone calls, the thoughtful messages you all managed to squeeze in through the cracks of social media, despite me having closed comments. Every single day I’m in awe of each of you and how you have all been there not just for me, but for H.A.D. since cancer first roared into our lives.
- Every day I marvel at these shoes.
And how I’m a person who feels like I should share my footwear with the internet.
- I love twitter. And I hate twitter. Some people are addicted to chocolate. Some girls love shoes or politics or car repair or googling pictures of shirtless vampire actors. I am addicted to twitter. Each day I consider quitting and then tell myself the likely hood of deleting my account is as likely as me getting rid of my zebra print shoes. (And the chances of that happening? Well. Let’s just say suggesting I get rid of them would result in us battling. TO THE DEATH).
- Each morning I wake up intent on morphing into the fashion goddess that is Michelle Obama. While brushing my teeth I check out things here, and become inspired to wear more belts and grow a foot and generally produce a an air awesomecoolgreatness. Instead I become disheartened because I don’t have the guts to spend $300 on a J.Crew sweater when I spend my afternoons with plastercine and paint. These are the burdens I bear.
- Every day I wonder how each of you are doing. How the pregnancy is coming along, how the new job search is going. I want to see wedding photos and read about the break ups and squeal when I read that we share a love of the same show (MODERN FAMILY. IF YOU ARE NOT WATCHING IT, JUST… OKAY I DON’T HAVE A FOLLOW UP, JUST START WATCHING IT). So I’m going to attempt to do the worlds best job of catching up on the universe.
Okay the bell just went and now I need to walk slowly to the front of the room so the children can admire my shoes. Or just practice my slo-mo walk while they stare. I’m in charge with shaping the minds of the future. They might not know everything, but they will know good shoes. Have a good day universe. And universe? Thank you again for everything.
So you didnt get my telegraph?
This post made me smile. A LOT.
<3
So glad H.A.D. is back.
So glad you have those gorgeous shoes.
And all around happy that things are looking up for you.
LOVE!
I like good news. And cute shoes. This post has both. Huzzah!
Have a good day.
This entire post gave me goosebumps. Glad to have you back, that things are looking up for you and HAD and just generally, to (hear) read your voice again here on the interwebs.
(Love the shoes! And I confess I don’t watch Modern Family but it’s on my list of shows to catch up on this summer, I hope.)
I need to know where those shoes are from immediately if not sooner! I used to have a pair of zebra flats from Old Navy, but I wore them into the ground. They also didn’t have kicky pink detailing, so clearly yours are better…and need to live in my closet
Those shoes are fab and so are you.
Glad to have you back. And if anyone deserves good karma…it’s you. After all, look at those shoes.
So good to read that all is better in your universe. Great shoes. xo
yay! glad you’re back
love the shoes!
I have MISSED YOU! and I am so glad to read these updates and know that things are on the upswing. When you’re caught up with the rest of the Universe and want to throw out some gushy Brandy-Doni emails, just… you know hit me up
I’d LOVE to hear from you! And those shoes are hot.
This post made me smile. I am so glad.
Hooray!! This is all such great news — but especially the zebra print shoes. (I kid, I kid…)
I definitely should’ve sent a telegraph. That would have been so cool.
Yes!! Yes yes yes!! I’m so happy Brandy, so so happy for you, this post makes me want to dance =D
And I join you in the modern family addiction =)
woooooohooo!
so glad things are moving in a generally positive direction again.
also, can i make a request? please? you have amazing shoes but you don’t post about them nearly enough! not nearly! can we get, maybe? please? a weekly shoe post? it would be awesome to see a weekly shoe feature because god knows you have amazing taste, too … i’d love to see FLOTUS in a pair of zebra print, pink-piped flats!
The sound you just heard was me sighing. It was loud, and it was for both your good news and your shoes, obviously. I want to come to Canada and hug you now more than ever.
I share my footwear with the internet too. I have blogged at least 3 posts of shoe photos lately
i was just SO excited to see a post from you in my reader…
i am glad things are getting better. i know we don’t know each other, but i think about you often and what you are going through and send a million positive thoughts and prayers to you and h.a.d.
also. those shoes=the awesomeness. how can you say you are not a fashion goddess while wearing those shoes?!
so glad that things are looking better.
i’ve heard excellent things about modern family but hulu only has limited back eps and i’m afraid i won’t get it…
So glad for the happy updates.
I’m so glad that things are better!
I’m so happy everything is turning around for you. I’m glad HAD found his way back to you, and ya, alone time was definitely understandable.
Those shoes? Are gorgeous
glad you are back
Never underestimate the power of love. You don’t choose who you love, love chooses you.
Thrilled that you two have a chance to work through this together. And totally lovin’ the shoes! NEVER get rid of them!
Can’t tell you how glad I am to have you back and happy again.
I’m SO very happy for you right now.
I want zebra shoes!!
My heart smiled when I read this post. I’m glad things are looking up for you!
Thank you for the update. I’ve been thinking about you.
I’ve missed you!
YES. love you pretty girl.
(also, i have the very same zebra shoes and i’m seriously obsessed with them.)
Yippity! This makes me happier than the time I high-fived Owen Schmitt – and I definitely sent you a telegraph that night. Much love, gal!
Glad to have you back, ladyfriend.
A list, in response to this post:
–[sigh of relief]
–Those shoes are fantastic. I’d want to share them with the world, too.
–It is so lovely to have you back.
–I hope life continues to bless you.
So happy for you that HAD came back. And those shoes are kind of amazing.
Oh hurrah, I’m so so glad that this post was a cheerful, light hearted happy post
And hurrah for the education of good shoes! 
You’ve been seriously missed. Very happy that HAD is back.
And seriously, yay for pretty shoes!
So glad things are falling into place. Faith and believing are magical, magical things.
I was JUST thinking about you yesterday and wondering how you were doing. I’m SO so so so glad that HAD is back…I can’t imagine how hard that time must have been for you and I’m so happy that you’re happy again!!
WOO HOO! I am so happy for you! I have been thinking of you and praying for you and I finally bought a Love Harder T-shirt and hoped that it might help other people not to go through the horrible stuff that you and HAD have been through. Yay!
Brandy, I’m so glad to see you back online, and back on track and that H.A.D. is back beside you. And with him, your smile is back too.
It’s going to be easier to work together, standing side by side.
So pleased for you.
so happy for you!!
LOVE this!!! So happy for you!!! I love your posts on Twitter too, so please don’t quit.
I sent a courier pigeon. Should be there anyday now.
[heart] the shoes.
HAD is back! And restart has been pushed. {hug}
Woot!
Well hello there! Nice to see you around. That is all I have for now.
aw welcome back brandy and i’m so glad that a restart has happened. this post just has an air of happiness about it and i’m so happy for you. also, zebra print shoes are amazing. i have a pair and ohmygod i love them. i don’t wear them nearly enough but you’ve inspired me to change that asap.
I am happy for you, for him, for the both of you!!
Yay you’re back! And HAD is back! I’m so very happy for you
I have shoes like that except they are trimmed in red.
Ohthankgod. So happy for you!!
YAY!
I know you don’t know me from Adam, but I read your blog all the time and I’ve been praying for you off and on as you’ve been going through all of this especially after the last post. I’ve been sad and anxious for you and I’m so glad that things are turning around for the better…or at least are on a better track.
Your shoes are awesome, I love me some Zebra too. In fact I have a tres chic belt from Target that would match them perfectly a la Michelle Obama.
Sending prayers and happy thoughts your way!
-Lauren
Sometimes you have to walk away until you can find yourself. Sometimes Love determines the path.
Whatever lies ahead… I wish you all of the joy life has.
So glad he and you are back. And also? Rockin’ shoes.
Like everyone, I am so happy for you.
The shoes rock.
Welcome back.
Everyday I checked my reader for an update, and everyday I wondered if you were OK.
I’m glad the universe is back on track.
You mean snail mail doesn’t mean snail *literally*?
Crap….well, he should be there in a few years.
I second Ashley…I checked your blog everyday, waiting for an update and hoping it would be good news.
*cheers*
Posts like this remind me why so many of us do this “little” thing called blogging. I’m so glad things are looking up for you and for H.A.D. Every once in a while it’s nice to know the universe still hands out big hugs. Love the shoes and thank you for checking back in with us. You were very missed!
Divine. All of it.
All I can say is Thank Goodness.
My worried email went to Miss Skrinker. Next time I’ll send it straight to the source.
Enjoy every step in those shoes.
Good list. Good shoes.
wow reading this now i’m shocked and happy to hear that he came back. i’m sure that was a HUGE relief for you. stay strong.
So glad to hear he’s back and things are looking up for you! Also, where did you get the shoes? They are also the awesome.
Life is so bizarrely complicated. And it’s nice to have you back. I hope that if we weird “interweb friends” can do anything you’ll let us know. And that cute shoes make us all feel happy. And honestly, the complications always bring me the most personal happiness- maythat be the same for you.
I’m happy to hear that you’re happy. I didn’t actually send you anything but you have been in my thoughts since this crazy rollercoaster began for you. Glad you’re back.
Hey…its so nice to see you post…please do keep posting…
The shoes are nice…even I bought the cutest ever shoes a couple of weeks back…will mail you the picture…:)
I’m glad H.A.D. is back and things are getting better.
And those shoes are so cute!
Your good news has made my day. I’ve thought of you often over the past few weeks and how unfair and poopy and frustrating life can be. I’m so happy that things are turning around… it reminds me that things sometimes do work out, one way or another.
Excellent list. I’m so glad to hear it
My GOSH this is awesome. I’m thinking of you and H.A.D. every moment of everyday. Okay, that’s a little freaky.
Your last post was so heartbreaking that I read it several times and wished there had been something I could have done for you. It was very moving and well written. I am so glad to hear you are doing well and that H.A.D. came back. I’m a cancer survivor myself and I too sometimes considered just running away. One of the hardest things about battling cancer is the desire to be strong for everyone else. H.A.D.’s running away may have been just what he needed to help him get through this, difficult as it was for both of you. Best wishes for you both.
So happy and relieved you both are back! LOVE those shoes!
And I can’t stop smiling for you!
I’m so, so happy that things worked out between you and your guy. Part of me knew it would. Okay, most of me knew it would. You have both been through so incredibly much together, you know? You have such an open heart to be able to handle so much love and so much pain and so much “unknown” all at once.
I tip my hat to you, miss.
And kiss your cheek, too. If I may.
Hope your days are filled with all things lovely! You definitely deserve it.
I am so, so glad things are looking up and that the H.A.D. is back and that you’re rocking those shoes and generally being awesome.
Welcome back, lady! We missed you!
Sooooo glad that H.A.D. is back! I wish you both the best in the future!
and ps? I LOVE those shoes, too!
so happy to read this post!
so amazing, each bit of it.
<3
and quite happy for you and HAD.
<3 <3 <3
Glad to hear things are going better for you. My email never went through. Idk. Crazy computer stuff. Regardless, still glad to hear.
XO
I’m so glad I’m like comment #80. That means this is only a smidge of all the good energy sent your way and what you deserve. I’m thrilled for the both of you and send you so much happy. Also also? I passed on the RR love to a friend of mine w/ that magazine cover you posted and she was like.. dear god. So thank you for allowing me to be the bearer of Ryan hotness for once. Also Also Also? I went to school w/ Ty Burrell who plays Phil on Modern Family. I get to brag.. I was in Midsummer w/ him in college. He was Bottom. I was a very small part not worth mentioning but he’s seriously the nicest person ever and we all watch how there’s finally a show worthy of him and SO glad you like it cuz the Hawaii episode? Holy.Crap. Funny… right? Sending hearts your way sugar.. xo
You seem so happy. This is good!
Those shoes are HOT!