It’s the first volume of The Secret Project: Crush Edition and I’m so, so happy that so many of you submitted secrets! It’s so much fun reading through them, I tend to clap my hands and talk to my computer (ie: “Noooo don’t think he doesn’t like you, just tell him! What if he feels the same way?”) which further illustrates my crazy but I can’t help it. It’s fall and I’m wearing scarves again and such honest confessions of love make me happy. As always, I’m still taking submissions (for the Crush Editions and the good ol’ regular Secret Project), so if you have something you’d like to share- a crush or otherwise, feel free to email me at: brandyismagic@gmail.com. Also, because I like beating a dead horse (not really, I’m actually quite fond of horses, I even was in 4-H. Although, I spent more time in 4-H learning how to play strip poker than I did about horses, I grew up with the four legged friends and find them quite delightful), if you are interested in helping me win $250 worth of books for my class, please go here to vote!

Hope you are having a wonderful Sunday! Go Colts! (Just for you Matt, just for you).

1. I have a secret crush to admit that I am not too proud of but I suppose cannot be helped. I have a teensy tiny crush on my best friends husband. He’s become a friend to all of her friends too and in the process I have developed a crush. I would NEVER do anything as I love my best friend to pieces!! Is this crush normal?!

2. My ex-boyfriend who is still one of the most thoughtful people I’ve ever known. Also?  Scott Caan, but that one doesn’t have to be a secret.

3. The blonde from the wishcake site.  I’m a happily married dude (and from what I’ve read she sounds like a happily married lady) but I think she’s hot, funny and a good writer, the whole damn package.

4. I have a crush on a guy that I’ve worked with for about a year. He’s really attractive, hilarious, & he’s extremely sweet. He was actually someone I continuously turned to when things were starting to get rough with my boyfriend. There has been a lot of flirtation on both ends, but we both know nothing can happen. (Unless we were both single. Then, maybe.. er.. yes)

5. My biggest secret crush is one I’ve been dealing with for literally half my life. I met him when I was 11 and now at the age of 22, I’m still crushing. He’s one of my sister’s ex-boyfriends from when she was 16. After they broke up, he kept in touch with me and my parents. We’re always the first people he calls when he comes back in town. We e-mail frequently. When I was still a teenager he used to joke around that he’d wait around for me. My crush has escalated to new levels in the 11 years I’ve known him. A couple years ago, when I was 20 and he was 24 and we got together, I realized it was more than a crush. He is my perfect man. In my mind, I’m meant to marry him. In real life, he’ll probably never know how I feel about him because I am afraid to let him know and risk having my ridiculous fantasy crushed. Pathetic, right?

6. I have a crush on a guy at school. I have enlisted my friends to a) ask him if he’s single and b) hook us up. I’m not in high school – I’m in grad school!!

7. My fuck buddy. I don’t know when she stopped being my fuck buddy and a girl I’d like to date and fuck but she has. And I’m tearing my hair out because I know she doesn’t feel the same way.

8. I’m totally in love with this guy I met in science class 3 weeks ago but it feels like I’ve known him for years. His smartness is off the charts and one of the most interesting people I’ve ever met. Every time I talk to him, I learn something new and he totally motivates me to do my best. I wonder sometimes what he finds interesting about me to keep coming back for more. I know, i’ve got confidence issues. (but you’d never know it if you met me. it’s a secret. shhh don’t tell anyone) The negative? He’ll put the pottiest mouth of a sailor to shame.

9. I’ve been madly in love with Prince Harry since we were 13.  The fiancee knows it and accepts it, and actually sees it as a positive because it means my “list” only has one guy on it!

10. I have a crush on the boy I’ve been hooking up with. It’s strictly a friends-with-benefits (or maybe even enemies-with-benefits) situation, but running into him on the street gives me butterflies. But he can’t ever know!

And 2 bonus ones for the week:

11. Shia LaBeouf. I would do such unmentionable things to him, it’s kind of insane, haha

12. I just wanted to tell you my secret crush, which really isn’t so secret – I am totally, utterly, madly – completely crushing on Pink. Yeah, have been for years. I think it’s because she’s everything that I’m not: Outspoken, brash, rockass – and well not to mention hot as hell. So yeah. Pink she’s it for me, and that cute husband of hers? I’d take him on too. I’ve always been a fan of boys covered in tattoos. HA!